This week has been the best one
yet, maybe because I finally was able to be with Astrid, and she’s the only one
who remembers who I really am.
I first saw her last Monday after
school and we were together for a while. It’s very weird, because I’m finally getting
used to my body, but being with her I again feel strange and aware I’m much
bigger I should be.
She also feels different. I don’t
think she’s scared any more, but it must be weird for him to talk to an adult
as equals, so I notice she respects me more, as if I really were older.
We avoided the park, but this
Wednesday she suggested wed should try and go to see if I revert back, which was
something I had considered before. My fear was that I would become even older
there, but maybe I could become normal again, so we went there.
We tried to do everything we did
that day and being on the same spot, but nothing happened. I think Astrid maybe
is wishing for the same thing to happen to her too, and I believe she might be
a bit jealous. She keeps asking about how I feel, and I believe she wants to
have an adult body too. But I don’t think it’ll occur that way, because that
wasn’t what happened to me, because I never wishes to be a woman too much.
Maybe I’m a terrible person,
because I sometimes wish she could transform too, because that way I’ll feel
less alone, and we could hang together more naturally. But I know it’ll never happen.
I think this is just me L
I still haven’t found anything
about something like this happening to anyone else, so it seems I’m weird.
Because I went to the movies with
Astrid this time, but it’s not the same. I don’t think people sees us and
thinks we’re friends, because our ages are too far now. I’m starting to feel
kind of like her big sister or something, because she treats me like that and
the other people talks to us that way too.
Are your dreams still of yourself as a girl or as a woman or as both
with a transformation event? That could happen perhaps. When people have
unusual events in their life they may dream of them but then forget about the
dream when they wake up in the morning.
I do remember most of my dreams
for a while, and I’ve actually noticed I’m still a girl in most of them, though
I’ve also dreamed about the event itself, sometimes in different scenarios, and
sometimes people realize something is wrong with me.
But lately I’ve been dreaming
more about being like this.
Hey, that second picture is great. you didn't tell us you had such a
great booty!
Thank you, I suppose.
Actually, one of the first things
I noticed since the change is that I’m a sort of large down there, or at least
that’s how it feels. I think I even commented on it here.
It’s not much of a problem in
those jeans, but if I get into something tighter, it becomes more noticeable.
It feels weird, but I’m getting
used to it and I even kind of like it.
Keep going older to middle and gradually old age.
ReplyDeleteMaybe you could add a few pounds to her as she gets even older and becomes a cougar and then a senior citizen
ReplyDeleteI don't control what happens to her (or what she writes, in any case).
DeleteIn any case, senior people is not the genre on this site. You might have noticed I don't have any such story.
So Astrid is starting to treat you like a grown-up, huh? Seems like that would be a natural reaction. But are you feeling any more like a grown-up yourself?
ReplyDeleteBesides your dreams, do you feel like your mind is catching up with your body in any way? Do you find yourself acting differently around anyone else, especially someone who is now younger than you?
Without being inappropriate, do you feel different about boys now even if you are still the same person inside? If you are older you might like them more, or you might like the ones you used to like less.... Or it could be there has not been enough time for it to make a difference yet.
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